Korea v. Japan 1-0. This game was so fun to watch, even though they didnt score a lot. I really want to go the finals in LA, even though baseball isnt that fun to watch haha. Maybe its just the korean pride in me that really wants to hope to see Korea get in to the finals. If Cuba and Austrailia get 1 and 2 then we play Austrailia and go on to round 2! hehehehe.
It's funny how im only a fan of a sport when i have someone to root for. Its really exciting! I really hope Korea wins!
Girl Update - Having a get together again with the "complicated one" heh heh. And im going snowboarding with someone else! :) i hope one of them turns out to something good! Man, i hope dont mess this up. :)
Running Update - So i've been running the past 2 weeks now. I've been running the same route of 1 mile right now and when i started i think i ran it in around 30 min. Yea i know, im really out of shape. Just stopping and running again it took me a while.
Yesterday 13.11 min
Today 12.01 min.
Hopefully i get my mile time below 9 min. Thats my goal for Mar!
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Monday, March 9, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
The Best Weather in the Whole World
I love the weather right now, its the best weather in the whole wide world.
The scent of fresh cool air filling up your lungs as if it gave you a magical power, the awesomeness of a rainbow soaring across the sky! The gentle breeze of air that hits your skin! The feeling of a new beginning, like the rain washed everything away and cleared you mind and body! There's no other feeling like it! The only other feeling that could come close would the feeling after a haircut, but that doesnt even compare to this!
I feel it gives me power to go on living my life and just do new things! I want to go traveling, to Japan and Korea! That would be fun! I can only imagine~!But for now, back to my poor excuse for a life! I feel so alone! man i really want to love..... :P
Sunday, March 1, 2009
LA Congress
So this past weekend, i went to LA Congress for the first time. If you dont know, LA congress is a weekend of a whole bunch of Catholics coming together listening in on seminars, concerts, talks, mass, etc... in Anaheim. It a Religious Education Congress. The place was right next to Disneyland, literally right next to Disneyland! We fought the urge to just ditch and go. This was a great weekend, i went with Tom, and a few friends from LA. I went to some music seminars and the first one really sucked, but the second one was... pretty good. it was basically a praise session with David Haas, a composer of contemporary catholic music. His voice is so powerful and crisp, he really has an amazing gift. The other seminar i went to was about how life is too complicated and how we've been trained to live these meanless lives. This was really interesting.
This man who gave the seminar was a genius. Spoke 9 different languages fluently, had like 3 Phd's. There were a lot of things that he said that really impacted me.
- "Anamcara" - means soul friend. Finding peace in the moment
he said that peace can be found only by embracing this moment. When you resist life as it is, the only result is pain.
- Spirituality does not equate to what you believe
- "Are we too busy with nothing to be busy for the things we genuinely have interest for?"
This made me think a lot more of where my faith is rooted. Ill be rethinking how i think about faith.
(sigh... i wish my brain was a computer)
This man who gave the seminar was a genius. Spoke 9 different languages fluently, had like 3 Phd's. There were a lot of things that he said that really impacted me.
- "Anamcara" - means soul friend. Finding peace in the moment
he said that peace can be found only by embracing this moment. When you resist life as it is, the only result is pain.
- Spirituality does not equate to what you believe
- "Are we too busy with nothing to be busy for the things we genuinely have interest for?"
This made me think a lot more of where my faith is rooted. Ill be rethinking how i think about faith.
(sigh... i wish my brain was a computer)
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Running
So since 3 days ago, i started running. Well, more like jogging or walking while hopping up and down. haha. Man, am i out of shape. I cant remember the last time i ran so much, maybe in high school when it was required. But, it feels good to run, Day one i felt like my heart and lungs were going to die. Today, only 3 days later, i feel much better, i can breathe easier and run farther without stopping haha. Today i ran 1 mile without stopping! yay! The first time i think i walked half of it.
But anyways, i hope to do this almost everyday. And hopefully lose some weight and get more fit in the process. haha, it should be the other way around.
Here's to a healthier life and to losing 50 lbs! lol :)
But anyways, i hope to do this almost everyday. And hopefully lose some weight and get more fit in the process. haha, it should be the other way around.
Here's to a healthier life and to losing 50 lbs! lol :)
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Faith
How would you describe faith? ill start like all people, webster. Webster's says that faith is an allegiance to duty or a person, belief and trust in and loyalty to God, something that is believed especially with strong conviction.
My brother, the philosopher (really a philosopher), always questions my faith, asking why do you go to church? What reason could you have for being Catholic? Many times before i couldnt answer him. If he asked me today, i still probably couldnt answer him. I once thought that faith was indescribable, it was impossible. I've lived a lot more life since then and experienced possibly much less than before, but i a Catholic, mostly because of the people that surround me. I dont do it because of God, simply put, i do it for other people. I guess this is a really bad reason. I really want to have a strong conviction for Catholicism, maybe i just need to learn more about my faith.
Lent starts tmw.
This Lent... My Sacrifices
1. Pray more
2. be more proactive about.... everything
3. read more
4. eat less (no eating out/sugar water)
5. learn to defend My personal faith
Fill, out!
My brother, the philosopher (really a philosopher), always questions my faith, asking why do you go to church? What reason could you have for being Catholic? Many times before i couldnt answer him. If he asked me today, i still probably couldnt answer him. I once thought that faith was indescribable, it was impossible. I've lived a lot more life since then and experienced possibly much less than before, but i a Catholic, mostly because of the people that surround me. I dont do it because of God, simply put, i do it for other people. I guess this is a really bad reason. I really want to have a strong conviction for Catholicism, maybe i just need to learn more about my faith.
Lent starts tmw.
This Lent... My Sacrifices
1. Pray more
2. be more proactive about.... everything
3. read more
4. eat less (no eating out/sugar water)
5. learn to defend My personal faith
Fill, out!
So, one of my hobbies, i guess for the past year, year and a half is collecting Shirt Woot Shirts. To say the very least, they're entertaining. I get them off their site, shirt.woot.com They have really cool designs occasionally on the weekends. People design shirts and they vote each week and sell them during the weekends. But everyday they sell a design that their staff designs. This was todays,
My ArchNemesis. The Teddybear Slayer
This was the highlight of my day! haha, i ended up not buying it.
Fill, out.
My ArchNemesis. The Teddybear Slayer
This was the highlight of my day! haha, i ended up not buying it.
Fill, out.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Passion
So, ive been reading this great book, "The History of Love" by Nicole Krauss, that i mentioned in my previous post and i've come to think a lot about Love. Well, in a non pertaining to a relationship between a man and a woman, but Passion.
This last weeek, i've been trying to improve the "quality" of my life. Yea, Quality, what does that mean? I think, im thinking in terms of accomplishing things and just experiencing life to its fullest, not experiencing everything possible, but finding out what things you love and dont and focus on those things. I guess finding what your interests are and actively pursuing them. I think i have a lot of little passions in my life. And in a general, broader way of approaching it, i think my passion is to help others. In all the things that involve the thing that is my life, in some sort of way im helping others. Some people say they want to change the world is some way, make an impact. i think id be fine just doing day to day stuff for people who need it. Is that weird. Its not much of a passion, i guess there's not that much ambition in it, but i think its something i do best. maybe not. Sometimes i think im selfish and think what if all these things that i do when im not doing my "passion" what if im thinking too selfishly? My mother once told me i lack selfishness. She says, "you need to be selfish sometimes for your own good, do something that helps you! Then you can help others" I end up thinking about that a lot. In order to help others, i need to improve myself. It sounds simple enough, but its really difficult. I find its much easier to help others than yourself.
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i thought about her again. Am i messing up? Should i not like her, because she has a boyfriend. Man, im really bad, i shouldnt be doing this. Im not deliberately going out with her or anything, i guess just as a friend im seeing her on occasion. Is it wrong to want them to break up? hahaha, ehhh....... man im a lonely lonely guy. sigh~ i want a girlfriend.
This last weeek, i've been trying to improve the "quality" of my life. Yea, Quality, what does that mean? I think, im thinking in terms of accomplishing things and just experiencing life to its fullest, not experiencing everything possible, but finding out what things you love and dont and focus on those things. I guess finding what your interests are and actively pursuing them. I think i have a lot of little passions in my life. And in a general, broader way of approaching it, i think my passion is to help others. In all the things that involve the thing that is my life, in some sort of way im helping others. Some people say they want to change the world is some way, make an impact. i think id be fine just doing day to day stuff for people who need it. Is that weird. Its not much of a passion, i guess there's not that much ambition in it, but i think its something i do best. maybe not. Sometimes i think im selfish and think what if all these things that i do when im not doing my "passion" what if im thinking too selfishly? My mother once told me i lack selfishness. She says, "you need to be selfish sometimes for your own good, do something that helps you! Then you can help others" I end up thinking about that a lot. In order to help others, i need to improve myself. It sounds simple enough, but its really difficult. I find its much easier to help others than yourself.
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i thought about her again. Am i messing up? Should i not like her, because she has a boyfriend. Man, im really bad, i shouldnt be doing this. Im not deliberately going out with her or anything, i guess just as a friend im seeing her on occasion. Is it wrong to want them to break up? hahaha, ehhh....... man im a lonely lonely guy. sigh~ i want a girlfriend.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
The First of Many Perhaps
Blogging, what an interesting idea.
I choose this to be private, but somehow it doesnt feel like it. Who came up with the idea of writing down stuff online? I feel confused about it, but it feels pretty good, having some kind of outlet for all the things that go on in my life. Considering i never really vent or anything.
I love to write, not good writing, but writing. Somehow writing things down on a journal or blog i feel in my mind a wave of peace and serenity.
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Today i had dinner with a friend, yes it was a she, a certain she that i really like, i cant tell her though cuz she has a certain someone as well, its not me. I thought in my head, man, this sucks, at the same time, she could break up with him any day. Here is the situation. ~.~ Her relationship is long distance and they meet once a month flying back and forth taking turns. Its really amazing. I really dont want to ruin what they have cuz it seems like they have something really good. But at the same time, i feel like i have an opportunity to fill in a void. i dont want to be a homewrecker, but i can help feeling that way. Of course, i havent acted on my feelings, but i want to be close with her.
Sigh~! I hate when i really like someone. I get obsessed and overthink all the possibilites and worry way too much over nothing. I'm trying really hard not to do it, but here i go ranting on and on about it. When i like someone i really like them for long periods of time. This one started ummm, exactly one week ago :)
So anyways we had dinner tonight in a nice restaurant and the food was pretty good, not awesome. I've been really in to cooking recently and i think i have a nack for cooking knowledge as well as actually cooking. But anyway, we had good conversations, and there were only 1 or 2 awkward pauses, but i managed to pull some stuff out of my head. We talked about our families, our goals, and good books that we are reading, in her case many books that she read partially. I especially enjoyed that part. (side note, if you're looking for a book to read, read The History of Love by Nicole Krauss) After dinner, we went to eat icecream and sat outside under a umbrella in the rain. we talked about our past love interests, well, mostly mine, i couldnt tell her she was the one current interest i had, so i told her about the time when i came remotely close to beginning a relationship with a girl. haha, she knew her. :( The ride back we talked about meeting up again sometime in the near future. She sounded really excited about it, so did I and we parted with her choosing a time a place! The End
I think im a deep romatic, or maybe i've been watching too many romance movies. :P I don't know but i romaticize about destiny and fate and all that stuff that i dont really believe in, i just with it was that easy. However, the truth is you gotta work hard for Love.
Anyways, That was today's highlight. I hope this leads somewhere good!
I choose this to be private, but somehow it doesnt feel like it. Who came up with the idea of writing down stuff online? I feel confused about it, but it feels pretty good, having some kind of outlet for all the things that go on in my life. Considering i never really vent or anything.
I love to write, not good writing, but writing. Somehow writing things down on a journal or blog i feel in my mind a wave of peace and serenity.
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Today i had dinner with a friend, yes it was a she, a certain she that i really like, i cant tell her though cuz she has a certain someone as well, its not me. I thought in my head, man, this sucks, at the same time, she could break up with him any day. Here is the situation. ~.~ Her relationship is long distance and they meet once a month flying back and forth taking turns. Its really amazing. I really dont want to ruin what they have cuz it seems like they have something really good. But at the same time, i feel like i have an opportunity to fill in a void. i dont want to be a homewrecker, but i can help feeling that way. Of course, i havent acted on my feelings, but i want to be close with her.
Sigh~! I hate when i really like someone. I get obsessed and overthink all the possibilites and worry way too much over nothing. I'm trying really hard not to do it, but here i go ranting on and on about it. When i like someone i really like them for long periods of time. This one started ummm, exactly one week ago :)
So anyways we had dinner tonight in a nice restaurant and the food was pretty good, not awesome. I've been really in to cooking recently and i think i have a nack for cooking knowledge as well as actually cooking. But anyway, we had good conversations, and there were only 1 or 2 awkward pauses, but i managed to pull some stuff out of my head. We talked about our families, our goals, and good books that we are reading, in her case many books that she read partially. I especially enjoyed that part. (side note, if you're looking for a book to read, read The History of Love by Nicole Krauss) After dinner, we went to eat icecream and sat outside under a umbrella in the rain. we talked about our past love interests, well, mostly mine, i couldnt tell her she was the one current interest i had, so i told her about the time when i came remotely close to beginning a relationship with a girl. haha, she knew her. :( The ride back we talked about meeting up again sometime in the near future. She sounded really excited about it, so did I and we parted with her choosing a time a place! The End
I think im a deep romatic, or maybe i've been watching too many romance movies. :P I don't know but i romaticize about destiny and fate and all that stuff that i dont really believe in, i just with it was that easy. However, the truth is you gotta work hard for Love.
Anyways, That was today's highlight. I hope this leads somewhere good!